Ok, i'm feeling very very bad right now... bad news after bad news... my grandpa is losing his memory, my sister not doing so well, my mum and dad quarrels every night, I'm having 1 presentation, 2 projects and 4 tests next week, i can't get into the website to research on my presentation, i have not enough sleep... and the list goes on and on... But God sees all these problems as nothing! Cause my GOD IS BIG! Not the problems!

I have been feeling very negative about myself for the whole day, even up till now, just because i have not been praying so much for the whole week and sometimes dont even pray at all, i let my tiredness and circumstances took over me. WHAT IS THIS? WHY HAVE I LOST THE FIRE?! THE PASSION!



I want to be desperate once again for GOD! i want the kind of desperateness like how someone is drowning and is desperately grasping for air! I WANT THAT KIND OF DESPERATENESS! Gonna pray and seek God, till i sense a breakthrough! Good night.